I have been a 'performer' since 6. Always been on the stage, for good reason.
K2 graduation- We had a group dance, and I was one of the cheerleader in the dance. P1 year end- Proud to say that I went up the stage to collect prize for bring top 2nd in class plus, a group couple dance after that. P4- Dont know for what reason, I was in the angklung group, performing for I dont know why. P6- 3rd in class, collect some prize. Sec1 to 4- As I was in choir, performing is what we did. School programmes, Sec 1 and 3 concert performances, competitions. JC1 & 2 - Yea...Choir, cant 'live' without the stage. MC days - Some event at TPY central. First time performing on stage alone. Hands shook like mad. And a group competition performance that won us some...weird creams. And TMR- First time in my life, orchestra performance.
Except for the first 2 stage experiences where my parents came, the rest, I performed for people I dont know. Audiences are either made to sit there, or they are there for others. Anyone but me. I didnt asked any of my friends to watch any of the performances mainly because they are on stage with me, or...they dont like to watch these kinda things..or maybe, I presumed they dont know about it.
The applause seemed as though they werent meant for me, not for me alone, I just happened to be on the same stage as them. But I felt warm nevertheless. Applauds always send tinkling feeling down my spine, which made me feel good.
So for TMR, similarly, 没有专属观众,没有专属掌声，只有沾旁人之光的掌声。 No matter how strongly I feel about the redundancy of people wanting to watch me (cuz Im on the first n last item)，I still wish there is.... Someone I can share my excitement with, and not just go home quietly back home alone.
11:05 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Went for the orchestra rehearsal yest. First time i gotta go there on my own. No chartered bus. First time going to Victoria Concert Hall without a chartered bus. But anyway, I love Victoria Concert Hall though its kinda old :)
It was kinda like a dry run rehearsal except for the orchestra pieces. Cant help it as co-ordination between the choir and the orchestra is a little....not synced. Rehearsals are always a headache with little kids. But needless to say, they are cute. But since the little kids dont use the backstage, its not as messy as I had expected to be. Since I couldnt take pic when Im on stage, I took 2 when Im sitting below the stage.
See these little kids~!! The front rows are the little choir kids. They practically shouted the song "Little Einstein" Haha Cute~ The kids on the raisers are little kids that can play violin. Damn cute.
This little boy is only 4!! Michelle's student. He is the 1st item for the solo segment. She said that kids dont feel scared on stage cuz they dont really know whats goin on. Really wanna see how these little kids perform on the actual day. I should be able to catch a glimpse of them, since older performers like me can wander around the whole place after going off the stage.
I bought a black dress for the day, Maxi helped me choose. But Michelle said its still too short(to me its already considered long), so I gotta wear leggings.
I still think this exposure is kinda a good experience for me, except that they dont provide me dinner and transportation. Haha.
Might blogged about the concert after Friday~
10:02 PM
Monday, November 16, 2009
Updates from the past few MIA weeks:
Finally got my hands onto the Mahjong tiles!! This means...EXAMS OVER! n WIL commences.. ...And last Friday marked the FINAL lecture in my Life (Hopefully, Im crossing my fingers!) Deadline of the Individual project is 11 Dec 09 - 1800 words. Deadline for Group Project is 8th Jan 09 - 4000 words. Does it sound inviting ?? I doubt so.
We had a Simulated Interview Exercise. Our Group was the last to finish the whole interview. And Since its Simulated, I dont feel nervous at all, and I can even talk crap to the 'interviewer'. How ironic, only when we are leaving school, we can get to know more pple. Like makes no sense at all..But they were nice people~
So no more lectures, and the next phase in my life will be working. I had sent a couple of Resumes and got NO replies. Sigh...I should keep sending, Sending and sending...I just hope I can get a job that I want, starting Jan2010.
Anyway, Mahjong was nice!! Maybe I hadnt touched it for...a few weeks, thats why. I think it is already OFFICIALLY our Weekend favourite pasttime. And I hope it wont change, and i think its highly impossible to, unless we got less than 4 players (Which is not really possible).
Oh and, I will be performing at Victoria Concert Hall on 27th November, as an Orchestra - as a 3rd violin. Yeah...the most 'beginner' group. I just hope to pass off as a teacher! Haha! Anyway, I only got 3 pieces plus a school song to play. Kinda have a mixed feeling, excited to enjoy my stage moments, yet uncomfortable cause im friend-less there. Imagine me roaming alone in the Victoria Concert backstage, with no 1 to talk to and TAKE PICTURE WITH. Ok, Im not going to think about it. I will just let that happen when the day comes.
Another thing another thing, I subscribed MioTv BPL package! Haha...Many will wonder Why the hell did I subscribe to SOCCER when I was like....kinda..disapprove it and knew nothing about it. I dont know, I just started watching Torres and I find it annoying to stream it online cuz streaming usually sux big time. Maybe Im starting to be less critical about things and accept new things. Maybe, it is under the influence of friends, cause I think its irritating to listen them to talk about something that I know nuts about.
Ok, this is a long post, and Im goin to end here. No one might read this lengthy n boring post except me anyway~
4:30 PM
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I dropped my phone today, On the ROAD. My phone is disfigured :( This is the first time my phone got soooo disfigured, even though I had dropped it a number of times. And trust me, my heart always sink when it did. Anyway, None of my previous phones had scars and scratches like this. Feels so pain to see it.
It all happened when I was at the road leading to Maxi's hse. I wanted to check how long I took to complete the walk in, took it out of the pocket and *slipped*, it slipped out of my hand and landed on the corner, and hit another corner, before landing flat on the road. My heart literally stopped for that moment. :((
From the rate Im dropping the phone, I think it is going to suffer a premature death, b4 my contract ends. To make it worse, these little imperfections on the phone will allow me to have a lower trade in value. :(((
See these little kids~!! The front rows are the little choir kids. They practically shouted the song "Little Einstein" Haha Cute~ The kids on the raisers are little kids that can play violin. Damn cute.
This little boy is only 4!! Michelle's student. He is the 1st item for the solo segment. She said that kids dont feel scared on stage cuz they dont really know whats goin on. Really wanna see how these little kids perform on the actual day. I should be able to catch a glimpse of them, since older performers like me can wander around the whole place after going off the stage.